THE DILEMMA

Is it? Is it not? Is it? Is it not? Is it?

I walked plucking each petal from the red rose in my hand, allowing fate to decide my future, instead of understanding the importance of each choice I make, each step I take in creating the world I want to live in.

Black or white, bicycle or by walk, pig tails or pony tail, knee high or ankle high socks, eyeliner or kajal, ladies special or unisex, front bench or back bench, friendly or bitchy, wedding or career, kids or career, foreign or local, to be or not to be……each and every choice always had two sides to it where I could let the red rose decide or I could make the decision and blame it on the red rose (which was easier).

Life always throws two options in our path “The right one and the wrong one”.  As I have learnt from my early childhood the right path is always filled with thorns and stones & the wrong one a walk in the park. But one wrong choice will lead you to another and yet another till we end up in a labyrinth of wrong choices, creating a web in which we are both the perpetrator and the victim.

Having reached an age where I can safely call myself mature ( I hope so) I have started to rethink my choices, my decisions, my steps that led me to my present. Felt proud about few matured ones that have made me who I am and understood few immature ones that have put me where I am. In the course of discovering myself I have also understood that I needed to burn some bridges to keep myself and my family safe and build some walls to protect us from further damage.

I have read that the journey between birth and death is called life. In my journey I have seen, heard & realized the uniqueness that’s me and others. People are not all good or all bad. Each and every one of us is an embodiment representing our choices. If I choose the easier path I one up myself towards cowardice, shame, fear and dissatisfaction as against choosing the right path where I take a leap towards hope, faith, truth and satisfied happiness.

I have understood that we are hurt the most when we realize our part in the situation that we have put ourselves in, and when our worst fear materializes right in front of us.

I now have the wisdom to apologize to anyone that I have knowingly and/or unknowingly hurt in my journey towards discovering myself. I say with determination that I forgive all those who hurt me and I say, thank you, with gratitude to all those who love me for who I am and not for the wrong choices that I made.

Wow, having said all these aloud I feel like a spiritual guru, hahahaha 😁, travelling towards moksha. Do you see a halo over my head? 😇 I wonder if this is called the awakening.   Is it or is it not?....

 

Comments

  1. Kavitha RajagopalanMay 25, 2021 at 4:22 AM

    Semma end, haha , Yes it is dear.
    Made me, Put me👌👌The clarity about people's nature, just pat self as it is true.Excellent and Keep Going😍

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  2. UnknownMay 25, 2021 at 4:23 AM

    Woooow . That was such an eye opener 🙌🙌 loved it !!!

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  3. UnknownMay 25, 2021 at 4:33 AM

    Omg awesome oneeeee keep going ;)

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  4. WHY - WAGMay 25, 2021 at 4:56 AM

    Thank u so much dear

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  5. KMay 25, 2021 at 7:11 AM

    Superb , kudos to you for putting in words what is an eternal struggle for every being so well.

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  6. UnknownMay 25, 2021 at 8:02 AM

    Aptly said

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